to you who does't answer my calls anymore..

i have a friend...

however,

that person was long gone

gone for eternity

gone forever...

i remember that person clearly

a friend, a good listener

a person with a big heart

the one that makes you smile

the one that makes laugh

the one that said it's ok, it's fine

i know the pain you've been through

i wish you could answer the phone

i wish you sent me messages like you used to

i wish you could said good luck whenever i need it

i wish i could hear your voice again

how i wish these will come true

but...

i know

it's never ever going to happen

these will never be a reality

how painful it is with fact that you're not there

forever..

i'm sorry 

i should have to tell  you something better

i'm sorry

i should have stay with you

i'm sorry

i'm too late 

even you're long gone

your memories

remains in my heart

thank you

for being a friend

even for a short journey together

i miss you

p/s: in loving memory of Yan

promises made...just to be broken

"the weather is unpredictable. it goes the same as life. my life has been a whirlwind lately. i stumble upon unexpected difficulties and i am not sure how is tomorrow is going end. my heart is in so much pain ( not be discuss and commented ) and I'm not sure this time, how long does it takes to heal. may god give me guidance and strength to walk and face the day again."

Promises made...were broken

Yesterday's goals, dim memories.
Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears.
Painful scars borne; Love's history.
Futures crumble when doubt appears.

No brightly lit hope envisioned,
When following after harsh words.
Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned.
Swooned by appeal - when numbness lured.

Apologies made, never bought.
Price paid turned out far too costly.
Though never known what would be wrought -
Must walk into the night softly.

One wish, only to be released.
Granted - now receive this token.
Words written in rhyme, love's deceased.
When promises made . . . were broken. 

gone

When did you start becoming weary of me
What burdens did I give you
To you, no longer say anything
I’ve become unable to ask now
Without the usual grumbling
Still smiling that polite smile
Losing the sadness that passed by your eyes
I’m sorry, it was absentminded stupidity on my part
my love

When I see you with your back turned to me
The time love clearly took
Now I can see it too
Like a time of separation
I saw it coming
I didn’t know you were such a part of me
If I could turn it all back
No, if you would smile for me just once more
By myself, I’m unable to hold your heart
Because of foolish pride, I’m sorry
my love

When I look at how cold you’ve become
The separation spreading in this instance
Now I know there’s nothing to be done
In the name of love
Slowly like changing colors
Love is leaving me
I didn’t know I had it to begin with
Even words of apology

Although I’m as sorry as this
What could a person like me
Say and how could I say it
Like I can’t breathe, I’m dizzy
Inside lost time
Even if I roam quickly
The only thing I could do now
Is that I can’t do anything
When I see you with your back turned to me
The time love clearly took
Now I can see it too
Like a time of separation
I saw it coming
I didn’t know you were such a part of me

it's you

It’s you, It’s you

It’s you, It’s only you

It’s you, It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you

When you ask again, it’s only you

Even if you already have another love

I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around

The moment my eyes began to burn

The moment my heart was captured by you

I have no regret, I chose you

That’s right, it’s you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me

Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you

Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you

Still Still

Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me

When you tell me thousands and millions of times

Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out

Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you

Still Still

Even as time goes by

Oh only for you, only for you

Oh only for you, only for you

It’s you

I don’t need any words. it’s just you

“ It’s too late “ , but for me it’s just you

I know our love is wrong

I can’t give up, I can’t let you go

My lips, cold as it can be, are even more blue

I cry out to find to find your warmth

I call, even though I call for you

And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you

For me, it’s you, it’s you

Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?

For me, it’s you, it’s you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me

Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you

Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you

Still, Still

Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me

When you tell me thousands and millions of times

Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out

Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you

(Still Still) Even as time goes by

It’s you

10 Things I learned About Life..Vol 1

1. Life is never Fair. So be it.We can never have everything at the same time.
2. Life is tough. It never went so smoothly. Trust me!!
3. Life is your personal experience resume!
4. Life is beautiful if you only make it as beautiful as you are!
5. Life gives you the opportunity to feel different kind of feelings. One minute you are laughing, the next minute you'll never know what's going to happen.
6. Live life to the fullest like there is no tomorrow. You'll never know what's going to happen next. Only God knows.
7. Live life with no regret. Try not to drag your sadness, gloomy day to the next morning!
8. Spend your life with your own way. What's the use of living in someone else shoes. Have the gut to live dangerously!
9. It is okay if you failed in exams better than failed in your life. If you fail in your life then you're hopeless! (Need extra strength) 
10. There are boundaries but pictures it as the bitch that you can't wait to slapped her with your red 4inch stilettos.